Impossible Belief
December 3, 2009http://trainsofthought.wordpress.com/impossible/
I began my journey on the Trains of Thought page & kept coming back the link for Believing Six Impossible Things Before Breakfast so I figured there must be a reason I did. I read the words & pondered on them for a while.
I wondered, when was the last time I believed in the impossible? In writing & creating artwork, you have to do that each time you start a project. That lump of clay to some, to you a sculptural masterpiece waiting. Bits of words might seem gibberish to others but you see the unfolding of a new world. You know Roulfe the Rowdy who seeks out his enchanted dragon to slay & princess to kiss is not real but it comes time to write, you have set aside reality & dive into his world.
I think somewhere along the way, I forgot to believe in 1 impossible thing, much less six. I abandoned my muse & told myself I did not have much talent, so why bother. Those moments I decided to write, my muse was off in the distance pouting & thinking, “Fat chance sister, you blew it.” & mentoring a school of fish. My writing felt stiff, boring- I was trying too hard & expecting too much.
It’s like showing up at 6 A.M. for 10k marathon after a three-day binge hung over, out- of- shape, puffing a cigar & sipping a brandy. You might luck out & win but most likely you are going to jog a couple of blocks, feel terrible & make a bee-line for the nearest bush.
Since discovering this group, I’ve rediscovered the joy creating brings. My biggest obstacle was having the courage to post. Of discovering maybe I was right, maybe I just did not have “it”. Maybe I was fooling myself for trying, like that drunk guy on karaoke night singing “I’m All Out of Love” off-key.
Now, I see myself in training. I don’t expect every piece I writing or art to be perfect. I am trying to get back into the habit of writing everyday & post on my blog regularly. I am really excited about this new blog & learning about the different parts of Soul Food Cafe because I have yet to fully explore it. It will be an exciting journey I believe.
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katirra
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You are not alone! Like you I hope that this time I can, will, have to, do it!!
I am so pleased that you have crashed through that ‘glass ceiling’ of comparison with others and posted. I like your voice Katirra and am looking forward to you really getting to know you through your work and your responses.
Thank you for the kind words. I must give credit to this group though for being able to discover courage. I’ve tried to participate in different writing sites/groups in the past & this certainly the best one ever.It’s a virtual playground for creative to learn, stretch their wings, find support. I’ve never experienced/read rude or discouraging comments, no one belittles another for being a beginner/amateur that sadly I’ve seen on other sites. In short, a perfect environment for someone like myself who needed some time to discover their creative self again.
That is what I like to hear Katirra. If anyone were to make discouraging remarks to anyone on the site they would be asked to leave. Soul Food is still ruled with an iron fist. I like to believe that vulnerable, fragile artists and writers are very safe here.
I can relate to the way you see Soul Foods as a training ground for writing/art. I feel exactly the same way.
You write with a strong clear voice that really resonates with me.
Thank you almurta. I think the biggest struggle I found with dusting off the cobwebs is feeling a bit lost. The 1st I sat down to really write, I was like okay now what?
Katirra, I love your sense of humor and you personal blog has such a sense of adventure about it.
I’m glad you are here.
a.m.
I am still feeling my way around Soul Food Cafe & blogging, so Thank You! & I am glad that others aside from myself can think I have a sense of humor. I don’t set out to be funny but sometimes I have the oddest ideas/thoughts pop into my brain.
Katirra, here is exactly the place to experiment and be “imperfect”.
I agree & grateful for it.